Life has dished me a full plate... I have my jobs, I have school coming up, Health issues, I have two charity events coming up, and money is always an issue on the back of my mind
Lets start with the money aspect... You'd think I'd never care about money seeing how well off my family is, the fact that my parents try to pay for everything for me. But I'm trying to make my own independence. Saving money, leaping at chances to work more to get more. Recently my work ethic has jumped from decent, to lets not stop working, work til its broken, just like my dad. A work ethic like that is a good thing to have... Sometimes. At the end of june, I joined Initial Outfitters, which is pretty much a jewelry and whatever accessories a woman could want, and personalizes them. Well on a 250 dollar party I can make 75 dollars. Which isn't bad for putting 2.5 hours of work into a party. Money gives you status, and right now, I want to build my own up.
School.... I haven't told my mother yet that I've changed to an education major to become a science teacher. I can't even imagine the disappointment that my mother will have in me. I'll probably cry when I do break down and tell her. But for the time being I'll pretend to still be a pre- med major.
My Health isn't great. I take vitamins all the time. But My hearing is going. I get sick often. Blood work getting done . I have a second degree sprain on my left ankle, which has hindered a lot of my working out. I should have just pushed through the pain. But I'm too much of a wuss to deal with the pain.
Of course there's a boy that weighs into the stress, but I'm learning to just leave it be. If he wanted me he'd make the effort. I don't need to be chasing pavements that lead nowhere. In terms. I feel like I'm digging myself a grave on him, yes there is the age difference... 7 years. At first I was wasn't sure about him, kept him away, but recently man recently I've just fallen for him. And I feel like I may just be setting myself up to getting hurt.
As for the charity events, drama... drama... stress.. drama.. is pretty much how it goes. Yes it's for a great cause for the children's miracle network, for the cancer society, and for the humane society. It's all for my best friend. This event was suppose to take place on Jul 31st, of selling books and clothing and other items at a low price to get cheap easy money for those charities. But because of lack of effort I guess, we failed to get a hall in time to actually make that happen. So July 31st, is a minor selling day, but mainly a collect day. And the selling day would be either september 18th or 25th, and I'm like, I'm at school, ontop of school I have Initial Outfitters, homework, studying, and the possibility of a boyfriend during the school year. I didn't plan on drawing this out... And its frustrating.
I'm being patient. God has a plan for me. He'll put things in my path to make me stronger for what I'm mean to do in this life.
And I confide in him...
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