Love this Pain.

She's no good for me
I know that she's a wild flower
She's got a restlessness
A beautifulness, a thing about her
But here I am again calling her back
Letting her drive me crazy

It's like I love this pain a little too much
Love my heart all busted up
Something 'bout her, we just don't work
But I can't walk away
It's like I love this pain

It's just an on again
And off again situation
It's just striking a match
A tank of gas combination
But here I am again lighting it up
Knowing that she'll just burn me

-- Love this Pain By Lady Antebellum

I felt like this was all too fitting for the way I'm feeling right now. I tend to find song lyrics to better express myself.

My most difficult question yet is, Why do we want the ones that hurt us? or Ignore us? There's someone out there that I really like, and want to pursue a better relationship with. Right now I know he's dealing with his own sorrows, but I'm doing what I should never want to do... Heal the pain. I could see myself falling head over heals for this guy.

He told me last night that he saw the note I left for him, and it made him smile...

"Love.. It wants to heal you."

Love does want to heal you, and I want to give it.

I gave him space after I wrote that note, I wasn't avoiding him, in terms I was giving him and myself space.

"Baby, baby stay, stay right where you are, I like it this way, it's good for my heart"

I did come to terms for awhile, tried moving on, but just recently he came back around.

He's to visit me soon. I do hope he comes.

I have no idea that after three dates in terms, that I'm just so smitten with him.

So why do we want the ones that ignore us....? We'll see how I feel tomorrow evening..

Until then I'm living on Hope and Faith... and maybe Love.